2 days after.....

I had a fabulous Christmas! I got new jammies, a perfume set, a gift card to Ulta, makeup cases, Monopoly: Here & Now - World Edition (SO COOL!), Mamma Mia! and an Elvis dvd, the HP: Order of the Phoenix dvd, and the SOOKIE STACKHOUSE NOVEL BOX SET!!! I am so excited! I think I got more stuff... but I am not looking at the stash right now, so I'm probably forgetting. I took pics of course and thought I'd share with y'all :)


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I was really hoping to get the box set of books from my Secret Santa, but I got the dvd then my mom told me later to open a box from B&N and it was the books! She said she had ordered them because she just knew I was going to put them on my list :D So when I didn't get them, and told her that I really wanted them, that's when she told me to open the box. YAY!!!!


I love Christmas, but I hope next year I'm able to buy things for everyone (not just 1 person) and I hope to get more gifts.... I'm not really all about the commercialism, it's just that it's really the only time of the year that I get new things LOL I rarely go shopping during the year.

I was happy to see Barb's pictures - I LOVE snow.... It's actually raining here right now with thunder n lightning .... not very Christmasy at all. I do love rain though :D

I'm hoping to blog more often... I just don't have a lot going on and don't wanna write every day about there being no jobs LOL.


Let me know if the link for the pictures doesn't work so I can fix it.

Hugs to all!
Adriana

Christmas Survey

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? I am actually pretty good at wrapping... I get kinda anal about it too. I am also a taper... I make sure there is NO part of the wrapping that might snag and tear LOL

2. Real tree or Artificial? We have an artificial tree because of my allergies. I am allergic to trees, weeds, grasses... not to mention mold, mildew and animals - So we COULD have a real tree (and I DO love that tree smell...) but I'd probably suffer for long time :(

3. When do you put up the tree? We usually try to do it the weekend after Turkey Day, or whenever we get around to it :D

4. When do you take the tree down? ..... whenever we get to it :D

5. Do you like eggnog? I don't think I've really ever had eggnog... I'd like to try it, but I may not like it... maybe with a lot of rum ;)

6. Favorite gift received as a child? I remember getting a purple bike, and I always loved getting jammies LOL I still, to this day love jammies!

7. Hardest person to buy for? Everyone! I totally agree with Aimee. We usually make lists and that makes it easier... either as a guideline or to buy something directly off of that list. This year we just did a Secret Santa and made a list of 3-5 things ranging from $20-40 and we buy one gift from the list for the person we picked. Hopefully next year I'll be able to afford presents for everyone :(

8. Easiest person to buy for? The person who's list I picked ;)

9. Do you have a nativity scene? Yes - but mom hasn't put anything up in the house this year... she's been really busy at work.

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? This year I decided that I was going to start mailing Christmas cards... I need to start an address book. I mailed them out yesterday, so I know they are going to arrive late, but better late than never, right? I'll be more organized next Christmas, I swear.

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? hmmmmmm I don't really remember?

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? I love Elf too! Love Actually, Family Stone, A Christmas Story, How the Grinch stole Christmas........ the list goes on and on and on!

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Whenever I can. I think I will, when I have money again, look for gifts year 'round, but I probably would start in Novemberish? I dont really know.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Not really - though I should this year :D

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? 7 layer cookie bars, fudge, sugar cookies with frosting, and a ton of other stuff :D

16. Lights on the tree? PRE-LIT!!! White lights with a ton of color ornaments.... or colored lights with silver or white ornaments

17. Favorite Christmas song? I love most of them.... This Christmas (by Harry Connick Jr.!!), Christmas Canon, and that Trans-Siberian Orchestra's Christmas Eve/Sarajevo song.... there's actually too many to think of LOL

18. Travel at Christmas or stay at home? We usually stay home... I would LOVE to travel. We did go to Mexico City some years ago and had a blast! We stayed with my Tia at the house my dad grew up in. I love going to Mexico but I would also love to go to NYC at Christmas time or to visit Barb LOL or anywhere cold... because it's nice to visit the cold and the snow since you don't have to shovel it and you go back home afterward :D

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer? Easy! Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen and Rudolph.

20. Angel on the tree top or a star? Either/Or I love both :) Our tree has a star.

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Christmas Day

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? the crowds!

23. What theme or color are you using? my parents have a red/gold color scheme

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? I HATE HAM lol but that's what we usually have :( Except this year mom is making a ham and a small turkey :D YAY!

25. What do you want for Christmas this year? the Sookie Stackhouse Box Set plus the 8th book, a fish tank (10 gal) so I can have some fishies.... a trip to Austin :(

If you do this tag (as you should!) tag as many people as there are days left till christmas.


I can't tag anyone because no one reads my blog regularly LOL But I guess Barb and anyone who reads lol If you don't have a blog too u can do the survey in the comments section! :D

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PUPPIES!!!

We have 7 puppies! There are only 5 in that first picture. Duchess is a great mommy. Her puppies are gorgeous! I dont' know what more to say about them... The second picture is my dad sitting and watching - I was sitting beside him. We don't do much, just help out... well he does - I'm afraid to touch them LOL We just keep an eye on her to see how often she is having them and to see if she needs any help. Also, sometimes momma's will bite the umbilical cord too short and we're there with string just in case we have to tie it off to stop the bleeding... or else the pup will bleed to death. We only had to tie the first one, she did a great job on all of the others.

She started having them at 2:45pm and had them pretty much on the hour except for the 3rd pup, which was born 8 minutes after the 2nd!!

The 5th puppy was born around 5:30pm and she didn't have anymore, so we figured she was done... it was already past 11pm and my dad checked on her once more and got things covered because a Northern front had come through. I went to check on her at 12:40am and I noticed it looked like way more than 5 puppies. I counted... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5... 6, 7 (WHAT!?!) so I looked around the box and there was an 8th! but he was off to the side and he was not alive :(

We think that maybe he was still-born and he was holding up the show and it took her from 5pm til midnight-ish to get him out, and the other 2 followed right behind him, because 3 puppies in an hour is rare.


I wish these pictures posted in the order I uploaded them and not from the bottom up. Oh well! Expect more pics :)

Princess Luna Bucket of Hope

Friday morning (12-12-08) my dad came into my room at about 8:30am and said, "Mijita do you have the number to the vet - I think Luna is dying? I went out and it took forever for her or Duke to come to the patio, then I saw Luna come around the corner and she was walking really slowly and her breathing was labored. I put on some gloves and stuck my hand down her throat to see if maybe she was choking on something, but I didn't find anything. Her stomach is inflated and hard."

So I decided that if my dog was going to die then I need to get out of bed, even though I had fallen asleep at about 6am, because she is MY dog and I have to be there for her. I got my butt out of bed and got dressed. Before I went outside, though, dad was on the phone with the vet and after explaining everything to them they asked if we could bring her in 30 mins and he said yes.

We got her into dad's truck and headed over to the vet's office. I'd say we got there at 9am and they didn't see her til almost 10. They took 2 xray's and they confirmed that it was GDV, or bloat. Her tummy had bloated and flipped, I suppose, a full 360degrees. The vet proceeded to tell us that she needed emergency surgery, but they don't do the surgery in that office often. They usually send animals to a specialist... the thing, though, was the specialist didn't work on Fridays. He said they would try to get ahold of the specialist and see if they could get him to go into his office. While they were gone, my dad and I tried to get ahold of my mom to tell her what was going on because she was at work. She was in meetings all day so I had to have someone pull her out of the meeting and then I had to text her the info as the vet informed us. The vet said that the surgery with the specialist would cost $3500-5000!!!! With them it'd be about $1500-2000, but they don't do it very often. He said they could go ahead and do the surgery, which consists of them opening her up, unflipping the stomack and tacking it to the sides so that it doesn't flip again in the future. But, most times they open up the animal and some vital organs have started to die from lack of blood flow because when the stomach flips, it pinches a vein and cuts off the blood flow. Then he said, "About half of the dogs we open up end up dying on the table." Part of what dad and mom discussed was if it was more than they could afford, did she want to consider the "other option". It wasn't just the money that led all of us (mainly my parents lol) to the decision we made... the odds were against her. She was 10 years old, which isn't old, but it isn't young. She had heart worms, or at least she had had them at her last visit for which we treated her for, but we weren't sure if they were gone. We hadn't had a chance to take her in to see if they were gone. She also had had a tumor removed when she was younger and she had 2 new ones - I'm not sure how big they were. So we really weren't positive that she'd even come out of the anesthesia. She was obviously in a lot of pain and terribly unhappy so the decision to have her put down was made......

I was SOOOOO not ready for that.

Even though "I think Luna's dying" is one of the first things dad told me that morning, I didn't think it was as serious as it was until we were at the vet.

The vet asked if we wanted to be present and we told him yes, and he gave us some time alone with her and we had to contact mom again and tell her. After I talked to my mom and cried I figured I should call my younger brother, Luis. I knew he'd be asleep because I talked to him the night before and he was going to work 11pm-7am, but I called him and woke him up to tell him. I told him that I'd put the phone to Luna's ear so he could say goodbye to her, and I did. The vet came in with the syringe and they shaved a bit of fur off of her front paw. She was facing the wall, and there was a bit of space between the table and the wall so I wedged myself in there and was petting the top of her head and trying not to cry, I was the last face she saw. It was quick and, I assume, painless. She just stopped breathing and after the vet was done, he checked her with the stethoscope, and told my dad and I that she was gone. Oh, my dad was on the side of the table petting the top of her back. I started crying because now that she couldn't see me, it was ok. The vet leaned down and gave me a hug (he's a really nice guy - he's seen our kittens and the litter of puppies who had parvo) and shook my dad's hand, then he gave us a few minutes to be alone with her. It was weird... she wasn't there anymore, but her body was.... Death weirds me out - I'm not scared, but I half expect things to jump or make noises LOL Minor phobia?

Anyhow - I didn't cry much after it was done... it was all so unbelievable. I think even now it still hasn't sunk in that she's gone. I didn't go into the yard much, which now I wish I had... but I can't dwell on the coulda woulda shoulda's. She knew I loved her. I saved her life when she was little for Pete's sake! Long story short she was a pup in a litter we had of younger pups, and we also had a few from a litter of older pups. I heard a puppy crying and went out and it looked like she was stuck in between the two 5 gallon buckets of water that we used to have for our dogs' water. The male we had back then, Sultan, liked to dump the buckets over and cover the patio in water. I went to pull her out from between the buckets and she wouldn't budge. I moved one bucket and noticed it was on top of both her back paws, and it had cut to the bone. Dad said that she'd have to be put to sleep... I pitched a fit! "If I had a cut on my arm that was to the bone you wouldn't have ME put to sleep... you'd have it stitched up and it'd heal." So my dad stitched up her paws HIMSELF and bandaged it. We went out of town for my grandparent's 50th anniversary and when we came back a couple weeks later she was fine. I asked dad if I could have her and he said yes! (He did say the next day we should try to sell her, but he had already told me yes LOL) I named her Princess Luna Bucket of Hope ;) The rest is history....

She was a great dog and I will miss her SO MUCH. She was my sweetie. Two years ago when 3 new puppies ransacked HER yard after she had been alone for about 7 years, she became the Alpha female and I think was pretty stressed. Now she's in peace with her momma :)

The amazing thing to me, is the night she passed was the night that the moon was it's biggest and brightest in 15 years! It's amazing because her name is Luna which is 'moon' in Spanish :)

GOOD NEWS THOUGH!!!

Duchess, mom's sweet doggie, is in labor as I type. We should have a few new puppies in our backyard by day's end tomorrow... it'll be a LONG night, but I'm ready! She's so cute! I'll be taking a ton of pictures. I'm so ready to have puppies because I'm still so sad about Luna. I love doggies :D Expect puppy pics soon!

I need to address and send out my Christmas cards, hopefully tomorrow. I think I'll start tonight, unless I can't bring myself to leave Duchess' side ;-)

Lots of hugs! - and thanks for all of the hugs given to me Friday.

**Adriana**

Luna

So I plan on blogging about Luna and what happened yesterday... but I have to go pick up my Aunt Jane from the airport like NOW - she's flying in from Alaska. So I'll do the blog tonight. Hugs to all! :D

Adriana

She's FEARLESS!

Apparently we have a daredevil amongst our two kitties. Loud noises and water in a spray bottle doesn't deter them - I should just say HER because Sugar only stays on the tree skirt and chews on a few branches, and on the fringes on the skirt. SHE is the one who climbs to the top of the tree. I guess that star looks amazing to a kitten LOL! I think it's going to be an ornamentless year. I have gotten the Dust Buster from the office... mom uses it to clear the office of kittens when she wants to turn off the lights and close the door. We'll see how good it works with kittens in a tree :D

Gettin' This Christmas Started!

Sunday we put up our tree, but we didn't put any ornaments on it so that we can see how the kittens would act with our tree. They've been climbing all over it and even up the tree LOL We have a spray bottle and are working on that (don't worry - we turn off the lights before we spray them).

We may not even put up ornaments at all because they'd probably all end up broken, but we are going to be putting decorations all over the house. I can't wait for Christmas - I LOVE it.

More pics will come later :D I wish it would get cold and STAY that way!

Happy Holiday Season!

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So happy it is this time of year - although I wish it were colder !!!

My favorite song today, lol

Freakin Blogger wouldn't let me embed the 2 things I made on Jib Jab, I had to post them to Blogger through the Jib Jab site.... what a pain! ANYWHO - I made a ton of holiday videos on J.J.'s site (GO ELF YOURSELF!) :D


BUT... I am not going to post them yet. I think I'm going to space them out too - I made 4 so maybe one a week? That should get me to Christmas :) I love that Turkey Day is almost here. It is my favorite because we eat turkey and I have to savor it because at Christmas we have ham and the only thing we repeat from Turkey Day are pumpkin and pecan pies :) I LOVE PIES!!! MMMMMMMMMMMM..... I'm so excited :D I'm not a fan of ham so I usually just eat the other stuff like sinful potatoes, YUM-O! I love the holiday season - I wait all year for it to come around again. I love the music and the feelings and the family and togetherness (Awwwww.) My aunt Kathrin, uncle Jim and cousin Kendall are coming down for Turkey Day - so that'll be fun.

Peace Out!

IS IT FRIDAY YET?

Just a quick note. I love Luzianne Peach Iced Tea :D I drink it everyday... I put honey at the bottom of the glass and I have a lil honey with each gulp. DELICIOUS! I make a pitcher of tea about once a day... Hello, my name is Adriana, and I am an iced tea addict.


I started working on my class today, and emailed my professor to let him know I was still working on it... I have until the end of this semester. I have a lot of work to do though UGH - dammit. I hate grammar too LOL

OH - totally forgot to tell y'all... When mom was out of town this past Friday/Saturday, dad and I went to eat seafood at this place called The Blue Shell.... long story short, dad found 2.... count 'em 2 pearls in his Vuelve a la Vida cocktail!!! CRAZY! Fo' reals :)

I'm looking forward to Friday because the high down here is 65 degrees! YAY :D

Have a great Thursday everyone :)

HUGS!

It definitely was a Monday

Today (Monday) I went to the grocery and bought my Zyrtec D (generic brand, though) and I think I can finally breathe without sneezing :D I also had to buy some cremini mushrooms for dinner tomorrow, or sometime this week, I dunno - mom needed them. Then I came home and had to clean the kitchen, which I'll finish up tomorrow - I just have to wipe off counters.

I got a call this afternoon from the temp agency I had applied at back in March (before I quit at Lowe's) and they told me that they wanted to see if I was working and if I was still interested in looking for a job through their agency. WELL OF COURSE! I didn't tell her that, I just told her yes and she verified my info and she told me that they had a position for a well-known company in town and she was going to set up a profile to send them, and then they will decide whether or not they would like to interview me, and so on. I told her that I did not want to be a cashier anymore, I'd been one for 8 years and it's time for something new, and that I was open to doing anything, but I don't want to make it seem like I can do things that I can't (ie: forklift operations LOL) So she told me that it is an office job, dealing with customers but it is NOT a cashiering position, no cashiering involved (YAY!) and it is dealing with computers and whatnot. So I hope they want to interview me - she said I have a ton of experience with customer service, she sounded confident so I will be too :) She said she would call me if they contacted her to set up an interview, or I could call her...I think I will give her tomorrow (not really sure how quickly the companies get back to them regarding profiles) and if she doesn't call then I'll call her on Wednesday.

In other news - I am loving these kittens, Sugar N Spice, more and more everyday. Just right now, Spice jumped down from the top of my mom's recliner where she had been snuggled in a soft blanket, walked across one table, over a laptop, across another recliner, and across another table just to cuddle with me :) Sugar has been asleep on the couch cushion next to me for at least an hour. They are the cutest! I had to make a folder for kitten pics only because there are hundreds now.

Thanksgiving is coming up and we're going to have dinner at my grandparent's house. My aunt, uncle and cousin are coming down so that will be nice. I don't think I've seen them in two years? Maybe they came down and I just can't remember.... hmmmmmm.... Oh well. OH! and Kaitlyn will be here too :D She's my niece.

Ok - that's all I can think of to write. I'll try to blog more often.... and I need to get on that damn treadmill already! I've been organizing my photos today and trying to figure if I have doubles on here. Here's a pic that I forgot I had. I took it while I was working at Lowe's in the Outside Garden register.



Not bad for a cell phone picture!

HUGS!

All I want is a little peace and quiet.

I have decided that I am going to plug in my mom's treadmill and start using it everyday so that I move more. I could walk outside, but that's a bit dangerous where I live. We don't have sidewalks so I'd be walking around on the shoulder of a busy street (and there have been WAY too many hit n runs lately) or I can walk up and down the road we live on, but that gets boring fast. So the treadmill it is. I do have to admit that I'm so ready to move out of my parents house. I love them to death, but I'm getting pissy towards my dad and it's not about anything major - it's just little things that annoy me (ie: he coughs a lot, the tv is always super loud because he's older now), none of them are his fault. One big thing that irks me, is the fact that he's home more often than he's at work because of the economy and market and all that fun stuff, I guess. I love my daddy, don't get me wrong, but I also love my ME TIME...and when I get up and he's there, it kinda eliminates the quiet house, with the television off and the peaceful feeling of being alone. I want to get a job ASAP and start saving up my money so I can get out on my own soon. I also don't wanna work out with my dad there... I dunno... but I have no choice, I don't wanna sit on my duff all day. So here's to walking tomorrow :D

Here's Me

I decided I should show you guys what I looked like in high school when I thought I was big LOL. I'll also try and find a pic that shows my girth :D

This pic was taken my senior year.... LOOK AT MY FACE!

This picture was probably senior year too - I don't remember, but you can't even see a tummy!!! Or, rather, you can see my boobs sticking out just a bit farther than my tummy LOL
This is the most recent picture of me where you see a side view of me. It was a year ago at my best friend's wedding (sounds like a movie HAHAHA). The boobs are further out than my tummy cuz I had my fake boob bra on and I was probably sucking in the gut ;) But I'm a big stomach, big hips and big booty'd gal. I hope after I lose the weight I want, I just have a smaller version of my ghetto booty :D

A New Goal In Life

Today, I was reading Aimee's post about starting her new weight loss program again and I got jealous. I have recently been thinking that it is something that I am going to do. I want meals either planned or suggested, I want someone to tell me what exercises to do and I want to be weighed and measured. I am the biggest I have ever been and I'm nearing the big 3 and I don't like it. I am not very close, but I'd rather be closer to the 2 than the 3 LOL. I put up a ticker that I will track my weight (no comments about my weight if you're gonna be mean!) I'm not doing anything really, right now. I need to stop drinking soda's because lately I've started again. I will make iced tea everyday! :D I just feel so motivated, but hate that it costs $$ to do, which I don't have and I am not gonna ask my parents to pay for me. I am an adult, and I mean I'm still living in their house and eating their food, but I want to do things for myself...as much as possible. I'm looking harder for a job, and I really need to complete my incomplete at school so I can get my degree in the mail. I just know that I can do it. I also don't think that I will ever be "tiny"... I am 5'10", but I know I can be smaller. My goal is 175... so that's 100lbs. I need to lose. I can't imagine being like a size 14....I really can't imagine myself being any smaller than that - but who knows! Oh, I am currently a size 20/22... it depends on the jeans and the brand and yada yada.... So I'll keep updating on what I eat and do daily...maybe it'll motivate me to do more seeing how much I DON'T do now :D

KITTIES!!!

As I sit here, I have a huge smile on my face, well in my mind actually. Monday dad woke me up with 2 kittens in hand. He said he had been at a gas station and was paying for a car wash, he noticed a police man looking around his car. Dad asked if he lost anything, and he said that he keeps hearing animal noises in his car. They popped the hood and there were 2 kittens. Dad asked what he was going to do with them and the cop said, "they're yours - you found them." Dad called mom while the car was being washed and asked if she wanted 2 cats. She said yes. It has been about a year and a half since my Cali died. She was my sweetie, my best friend, my confidant for 20 years (since I was 5 years old). It was too quiet in the house and I am so glad we finally have liveliness around here again. They are way too cute! Here are some pictures I've taken so far...I haven't mentioned on here yet, but I LOVE my new camera! Jeremy and my dad pitched in and I picked it out. Though, I still have a lot to learn about it.

Here they are - Spice (female) and Sugar (male)

I came back into the living room to find this - and NUMEROUS Firefox Help tabs open. I even had to restart my computer because I couldn't type anything! :D

This is Sugar - he's a sweetheart.

This is Spice - she's fiesty (and sweet)

I love having them around :) It's very relaxing. I still need a job though...cats aren't much help with that :)

SNL May Not Be What It Used To Be....

....but at least we still have these two doing things. After Amy leaves - it won't be funny at all.

First time for everything...

The road called "Life" comes to a point where you need to decide which way you're going to go. I'm coming around the bend of that multi-toothed fork in my road and it's scary. First thing's first - I HAVE to finish that stupid grammar class...I just hate parts of speech and all of that fun stuff. I think part of me doesn't want to finish the class because after that, there is nothing holding me back from having to move forward and leap into the real world. That is the only thing I have to hold onto what has been my life for the past 8 years..... yes! I said EIGHT. My family says I have taught everyone of them a lesson in perseverance. I say I just couldn't make up my mind :) Although, I suppose there are many people out there who would have simply given up and quit until they decided what it was they wanted to study. I just figured I'd study everything until I found something I enjoyed.

Truth be told - I picked English/History simply because I wanted to get the hell out of UTPA! There were a plethora of times that I just wanted to quit going to school, but to me that wasn't an option. If I would have quit - all I would be in life was a cashier...and that wasn't going to fly with me. I finally had to quit working as a cashier back in April. I was going crazy - LITERALLY! I found myself standing there among a variety of people. They were either in high school or fresh out of, and were working to gain experience and to finally begin earning their own money. If they weren't kids - I was working with people over 30 or 40 years old who probably wouldn't be anything better. I'm not saying retail is a dead end job...some people make a great living working in retail, but it was not what I wanted to do for the rest of my life.

I'd find myself pacing at Lowe's (especially when they stuck me at the self-checkout- I loathe that area! IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO CHECK YOURSELF OUT, GO TO A REGISTER!....Just sayin'.) and thinking to myself "you get paid too much to just stand around" and "I'd rather be doing something at a desk of my own, in front of a computer and making a difference than standing around with a bunch of kids and dealing with all of the bullshit that goes on among managers and slut employees". Seriously - if I didn't value myself and my body, I probably could have gotten far in that company because I know the managers weren't against doing things with employees. I simply stayed out of all of that drama and kept to myself, which in the long run makes it seem like you don't care about your job and you don't like being there...though, after a while - I didn't want to be there and started showing up late, or calling in.

The last straw came when I was at my most favorite register at Lowe's - the lumber register. People who go through the lumber area are 10x more pleasant than any other customers in the store. I had some training that I had to complete, so I took advantage of a slow period and went across to the Commercial Sales computer to knock out my training. Those computers had no headphones so I had to read the script of the training, rather than listen to a lecture. As I started this slide show training, I came across SO many spelling errors, and it REALLY pissed me off! I know I probably notice spelling errors more than most people, but COME ON! This wasn't some hole in the wall, mom n pop shop I was working for....this was LOWE'S......they've got locations all over the United States and they were talking about expanding into Canada and Mexico. By this time I had already chosen English as my major, but I didn't know what I wanted to do with my degree. But after taking this training - I just knew! I want to be the person that companies hire to look over these trainings, scripts, memos, projects, etc., etc., etc. for errors in spelling, grammar, word usage, punctuation.... There I was, working as a cashier for a company that needed someone at the corporate level to do something I do without giving it a thought. I had to quit. I decided that day that my dream job is to be so famous that I could stay at home and receive manuscripts, theses, books to be published, etc. in the mail to be proofread and edited. I'd be raking in the big bucks...but I have to start off somewhere. That's the question I now face, "Where do I start?" I wish the answer was obvious - but the answer I have right now - wherever I can. Having not worked since April means the bank account is empty. I can't start doing anything until I have money to back myself up - I just worry about the economy right now... are any companies going to be able to afford to pay me? When I was still working - companies were already finding ways to cut back on costs - firing people who needed to be promoted, and simply sliding someone in the same position over to a different department so that they didn't have to pay that person any more money, which only left hiring someone to fill a position that was $2/hr. cheaper.

I'm going to finish that class - because I can't just sit at home anymore. I need to do something with my life. I need to start standing on my own two feet. When I finish that class I'll probably feel better. I just hope to find a job ASAP.

Wish me luck...